I don’t know
I don’t know what to do. There’s part of me that wants to quit looking at porn and jacking off, but I don’t have much motivation at all anymore to quit. I’m depressed, which doesn’t help. God (of Christianity) used to be the main reason for me to abstain from “sexual sin,” but I’ve realized that the church is a _____ joke, so I don’t attend anymore – and I’m doubting that God’s even out there. And the simple fact that porn is bad for me isn’t enough to get me to stop. It’s difficult to answer the question “what’s the point anymore?” when there’s almost no legitimate, moving conviction to get me on the “right path.” I just don’t know. I looked at porn and masturbated three times today, so I’m obviously on my way further down into this pit again. Not sure if, when or how I’ll be coming back up this time around.