I am a born again Christian. I love the Lord. I desire to walk in His will for my life. But I can’t because I can’t stop looking at porn. I can’t stop masturbating to the images I see. It tears me apart, and I absolutely hate myself. I’ve never felt more disgusting.
When I was young I was abused for a while. That being said, I’ve been rather sexual minded since seven years old… I’ve been touching myself ever since.
I’ve truly never felt so dirty, and I want to stop. I want to love myself. I want to Honor the Lord who’s given everything to me. I want to be pure and whole. I need help. Words cannot express how absolutely broken I am. Even when I try to stop I fail and it hurts that much worse.
I’m so tired of feeling so broken.