A Lost Sheep
Life should be an ecstasy, but as I progressed on, I became more and more depressed. Depression is one of the main problems why I look towards pornography. I want that little moment of ecstasy just to relieve myself of my current situation. However, whenever I was deprived of porn, I turned to darker thoughts, even to the point of committing suicide. It is not unusual to see suicides nowadays on the news, but I firmly fight to stay alive. This does not mean that suicidal thoughts do not come anymore. They rampantly flood my conscious thoughts every other day, but I want to continue my journey. I want this suffering to end and come back to God’s loving embrace.
Please pray for me. Thank you.