Needed a place to confess, and to share some thoughts I had this morning from some scripture reading and my journey. Thanks for reading, Grace & Peace
‘Don’t worry about the wicked or envy those who do wrong. For like grass, they soon fade away. Like spring flowers, they soon wither. Trust in the Lord and do good. Then you will live safely in the land and prosper. Take delight in the Lord , and he will give you your heart’s desires. Commit everything you do to the Lord . Trust him, and he will help you. He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun. Be still in the presence of the Lord , and wait patiently for him to act. Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes.’
– Psalms 37:1-7
Something I’ve been drawn to think about lately from this Psalm is that we are told to take delight in the Lord. When I looked up the definition of delight, it states, “ to take one’s pleasure in”. Another way it could be said is to enjoy knowing & being with God.
Another thought is that we are told to trust- both before & after it says to delight. I am finding that I haven’t been delighting in Jesus, because I haven’t fully trusted- my ‘trust’ only goes so far and then ‘runs out’ and takes delight in lesser things.
I’ve really been struggling lately to rest in God, abide in him, and have time alone with him. I’ve also been tempted more and more to act out and seek sexual pleasure from the world. So tired + empty (spiritually) + temptation = sin. This was the recipe for a fall. I found opportunity to give into sexual temptation the last three nights. I had made it 52 days since the last time. So, I start over, seeking God’s grace and forgiveness, and asking for help to get connected to him & others.