18 years already

I have been masterbating and touching myself since 6 if I remember right, didn’t really know how it started, some movies we watched as a family had some sexual scenes and we aways skip over it, but a few seconds the thought is in the head already, lived in a christian household, dad a pastor and served in church but this secret is deep within. now I’m 23, and a few years ago I started reading web comic and found “yaoi”, which destroied me, I found myself enjoying the concept of gay-salve porn, I’m a straight female, but gay forceful sex in manage and comics turned me on. I need to break free, and I hate myself for doing it, but touching myself has become a habit.